Im Standing On My Soap Box Angry

When I have obligations to my son, the outside world doesn’t understand. Everyone has left at some point because of my dedication to him. And in their selfish ways, they don’t see how much he needs me.

I’m not saying that my son is more important than anyone else. God knows I’ve tried to please others around me. And still its never enough to make the people around me happy. But my son is a part of my life that I have to take care of. And I’m not going to just abandon him because someone else doesn’t think I should have to deal with him.

It’s not easy being a parent. It’s even harder when you have a child with special needs and harder being a single parent. And it’s especially difficult when the people around you ( Im talking family members) don’t seem to understand what you’re going through. But you know what? Id do anything for him because in his eyes I can do no wrong. Certain children of mine had there own mental health issues and I did the best I could to support and provide her needs. I included her in everything because her brothers autism. She chose not to want any part of our family regardless. It was only towards the end where I excepted I lost and let her go her own way when she became of age.

Parenting is hard enough as it is, but when you factor in a child with special needs, it can become overwhelmingly difficult. It’s a full-time job, and then some. There are doctors appointments, therapies, specialist visits, and all the other day-to-day tasks that come along with parenting. And on top of all that, you have to deal with the judgement of others who don’t understand what you’re going through.

It can be incredibly isolating. People have inevitably left because they don’t want to deal with the added stress of having a child with special needs in their life. And that’s okay. Not everyone is cut out for it. But those people don’t get to dictate how you live your life or how you parent your child.

You are the one who knows your child best. You are the one who knows what he needs and what is best for him. So don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise. Just because they don’t understand doesn’t mean you have to change everything about your life to accommodate them.